Officially a Ticket Writer

Huzzah, friends.

I started my new job yesterday. I was so nervous and excited to start. I worked a 7 hour shift yesterday. Basically I stood around the whole time just watching so that I can actually start working today. Super stoked to actually DO something instead of just watch. Yesterday I did get to update the college boards for next week. That was pretty exciting. I can’t really explain it all that well, but I enjoyed it.

Other than that, here’s a further update:

Payless:

• I quit, as you all know. I didn’t have an end date as I was unsure of my schedule with the new job. Last week Tuesday was supposed to have been my last day.
• Tuesday was not my last day. My boss got a call that she was on Total Temporary Disability. As in, she can no longer work until she is 100% healthy according to the doctors she is seeing. That could be a while. I hope that she is feeling well and taking close care of herself. I really do.
• Being that she will not be in the store for an unknown time, she needed all the help she could get. I took one of her shifts that same week and told her that my new job only requires me to work 4 days a week (10 hour shifts each day generally). Because of that, if she’d like to keep me around 1 day a week, I’d be more than happy to do that. It’d be nice to have the extra $40 each week or so just for gas or whatever.

The Apartment:

• Life is still an adjustment. Again, it’s nothing to do with who the roommates are, it’s just a new experience for me. I’m learning to be a good roommate and learning to adjust to having roommates myself.
• I still feel as though I don’t really ‘live’ here. I’m just a permanent guest. I’ve tried to explain how I feel to Justin and to my other roommate, Candace. I don’t think they really understand. I think it’s just a personal issue that I’m going to have to get past. Stuff does not define space. Even though nothing in here (except my laptop and hope chest) is mine, I am still a tenant and should be allowed my own space. I have to learn to enjoy spending time in our room by myself.
• Justin and I have had an interesting week. It was pretty bad one night. I was even considering leaving. Going home.. or asking my uncle to stay with him for a little while. Justin and I have an interesting way of dealing with our issues. It’s not really the best, I don’t think… but.. it works for us. Sometimes it’s so frustrating. But I know that is partially my own fault. Neither of us are great at confrontation. I spent the majority of one day being quite depressed and avoided contact, other than verbal, with him all together. The next day we semi-talked about the issue. And the third day, a new issue arises and we solved it all. Things are good. We’re still taking it pretty cool. But.. it was better than I thought it would amount to.

Trip home:

• I got to go home to Minnesota about a week and a half ago. It was a VERY short trip. But it was well worth it. Mom paid for the tickets (a grand total of $85.50). The price was right and we both missed each other terribly. I missed everything. Even though it was so short, it’s nice to know that down the road, once I’m comfortable with my new job, I can hopefully afford to do that myself. Even if it’s just a short weekend type thing.
• Thanks to everyone who made my quick trip possible (especially Mom, Dad, Heather, Ben, and Christy).
• Thanks to everyone who made an effort to see me (especially Kiki, Jason, Mike, and everyone).
• I feel pretty rotten that I didn’t get a chance to see everyone that I had hoped. Lori, know that I miss you like crazy. Next time that I do get home, I think we need to do a girls day. Kate, Russ, and baby, I’d have liked to at least tried, but with the time frame I was home and how quickly it happened after the birth, I didn’t think it’d have been right even getting your hopes up that I’d have made it. And extended family, you all know who you are, next time I’m home for longer than 2 days, I want to make a serious effort to make it to all of you. Hopefully we can work it out so we can meet in the ‘middle’ but if not, I want to try to make it out to see each of you.  I love you all, family and friends, and wish that I could be there more.

I suppose. That felt good to update.

Miss you all and love you dearly.
Jackie

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